If You Want Me To

I love music. I love to sing, love to listen to it, love the lyrics. I say that I often think "musically." God often puts songs in my mind to remind me of Him, to show me some truth, to help me hear from Him. Right now is no exception.

I'm entering an interesting, yet unexpected season of life right now. I'll write more later- I'm still processing in my head and my heart and just not sure I'm ready to put it out in blog land just yet. I had such a hard time even journaling about it because it was something about just writing it out on paper made it seem real..if I wrote it out (almost like saying it) I couldn't take it back. I'm venturing on a journey that will not be easy. I don't want to walk there. In fact, I'd much rather go around it completely. But God doesn't work that way. He allows us to go through things, not around them.

I've always loved music by Ginny Owens. This song came to mind today.

"If You Want Me To" by Ginny Owens

The pathway is broken and the signs are unclear
I don't know the reason why You brought me here
But just because You love me the way that You do,
I'll walk through the valley if You want me to.

Because I'm not who I was when I took my first steps
And I'm clinging to the promise Your not through with me yet
So if all of these trials bring me closer to You
then I'll go through the fire if You want me to.

It may not be the way I would have chosen
When You lead me through a world that's not my home
But You never said it would be easy,
You only said I'd never go alone

So when the whole world's turned against me and I'm all by myself
And I can't hear You answer my cries for help
I'll remember the suffering Your love put You through
And I'll go through the valley if You want me to.

 

 

It's amazing about how much peace I feel. Now, believe me- this was not the path I wanted. Not at all. I'm a planner. I had a plan to get from Point A to B. It didn't necessarily include this little detour. But I'm reminded that I have a God who goes before me, who walks with me, beside me. He feels what I feel, He knows my heart, He knows my longings. He knows what is best for me. It is good. It may be hard getting there, but it is still good.

 

Lamentations 3: 21-24: Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: Because of the Lord's great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning, great is your faithfulness. I say to myself :"The Lord is my portion, therefore I will wait for Him."

 

I'm traveling for work right now and hubs is in the deer stand. I miss him like crazy when I travel so for my own sake, here's a pic of us.

 

 



Ashley